Isaac Newton’s question if the apple falls , does the moon also fall, started the mathematics to calculate this fall and things related to that. A lot of questions that i had during my engineering days about why i m studying calculus . Why differentiation and integration? what’s the use of it. My professors although invested so much time in teaching formulas but never thought it was necessary to let students know why they need to study calculus. Thanks to internet later, in one of the videos of michio kaku , he started talking about newton, then his observation of apple’s fall, then his thought of possibility of fall of moon and how it led to start of calculus. Otherwise this question would have stayed there forever.
Another question that may come to reader’s mind would be, why i m discussing this? i came across michio’s video where he was sharing his thoughts about God and in same video, he shared opinion of Einstein about God. He explains ,Einstein believed that universe with such precise systems and laws was definitely not a mere accident ,it was created by a source that allows things to work ,the way we see them working from human systems to cosmos.
I m born in hindu family and my mother has taught religious beliefs from the very beginning. I think i read Gita in very young age. A lot of things in it were beyond my comprehension at that time. I studied many other religious books as well later. But God was in my thought process from very beginning but usually reference was one of the hindu Gods, always whenever i thought about God.
When you go to school, if you start studying science , it starts creating conflict with God and his presence. If you start following physicists, most of them don’t believe in God as science works on proof and provable steps that can be taken to prove a theory. From those standards and reasons physicists could not create any experiments to prove God’s presence and hence no faith in God. But then michio and his string theory in his own words proves the presence of Gods and his belief that God is probably a mathematician of highest possible precisions.
I have lived a life, where i really did not need provable steps to confirm God’s presence. A decade back, i met with a severe car accident, it was midnight, i was probably lying in the pool of my own blood , what i saw, is what i remember as short dream, people pulling me or doing something, i thought i was having some fight with arrogant people of Delhi in my dream. Then i got into deep sleep and came to senses, when someone was pulling a string that was attached to skin on my face, on other side some one doing something with my teeth with some tool and having a casual talk to the person who was pulling the string that was hurting me.
Once those guys left, i realized i was in a hospital. There was some sticky material in my hair ,on back side of my head due to which i could not make much of movement but i could see my whole white T shirt had become red, my pants and shoes were all red too and the sticky material was my blood that probably was drying .
I have been a problem child and met with many smaller accidents and injuries, in playfields of cricket, football or martial arts, where i have broken my bones, some times my fingers or hand or foot but this was beyond all that. In Delhi i used to live alone, i checked my pockets, my phone was missing, my wallet was missing. i just had some cash in my pocket which people might have missed to check.
After i came to my senses ,i understood something terrible has happened, i asked one of the guys present there ,to help me get to my home. He brought in a taxi and got me to my place. i called my brother who came and realized how bad it really was. Next day me and him went to a private hospital again. He also got my family who lived in another state. Five days later they did operation to put my broken jaw back in place. They hung it with wires inside my mouth, in an operation that went for 4 to 5 hours, so my mouth was sealed for four months and i could only take liquid diet. Four months on bed and i came face to face with my self. lot of questions, lot of self hate. when your whole body can move and you can’t take your own saliva in. Its probably one of the worst feelings you may have.
Ten years after that accident i see the whole thing and see that as my rebirth. if you look at the condition of the car, you cant believe the driver could make it and really survive. People of delhi are ,for that matter any metro have become apathetic to almost everything, they would just carry on with their own life does not matter what happens around them. They don’t even come to rescue during day light and my scenario was midnight, when everybody is in their sleep. That little dream when people were irritating me and pulling me due to some fight, was in reality an act of rescue, they were pulling me out of car to save me. My car’s wind shield glass had gone into right side of my face and had broken my jaw and i was bleeding heavily from my nose. I always wondered, if none of them would have come to get me out of car. how come those people helped me in the midnight when they were expected to sleep? I could have just be in my car, the way i was, bleeding heavily through my nose. Would i have reached hospital? You know the answer, I know the answer. I know from where I have come.
So every time question about god’s presence comes into my mind, after i hear someone questioning his presence. I go back to my rebirth. When i was not even aware, what had happened to me. I was helpless. I could not ask for anybody’s help either, how can unconscious man do that. Even in that state ,if that force, took care of me, got me all the help and allowed me to survive. I remain grateful to it. Its the same rebirth point i go back to, whenever i think i m in deepest problems. It allows me to remember, if that force can get me out of that , this current problem is nowhere close to that. It gives me immense power to take on anything in life.
I also realize that everything after my rebirth is a gift, every breath i take is a bonus. The guy who met with that accident and all his evils were gone in that accident. The guy who was reborn , was given a chance to redeem himself and fix things he had broken and be a better man. Everything that looked impossible were given to me subsequently .
Lot of people may think, this whole thing was a fluke accident and everything a coincident. But these coincident are really frequent to me. Two years after the accident, i got married ,was working for one of the best companies in the world. Then 5 years later, i was gifted with a son, 2 years later i realized that my son was in the ASD (autism spectrum disorder)spectrum.
Then i saw another incident. Due to ASD my son haven’t started speaking yet. He was 4 years old and i was in a busy shopping mall with my wife and son, in the queue of point of sale, to make payment for the shopping. Suddenly, i realized my son was not around me. Next realization , he was no where near. I started running to all his usual spots, his chocolate point, his toy point and all such points but he was at none of them.
My mind was about to explode ,with avalanche of thoughts, he cant even say his name. He is so peculiar about his food, his everything , we know how we handle lot of things. If he is lost, how will he tell his name. He shows all his tantrums with all the right in this world over his parents, while doing everything, how will that happen ,if a stranger finds him and he has to live with a stranger. how a stranger will handle him. Oh God what will happen to him. God can i live without him. Can he live without his mother or me?
I was running back to point of sale counters and i heard announcement, Mr. Singh, Suraj singh your son has been found, please come back. I ran to them and saw him and hugged him with all my heart. I could not believe this whole miracle. Later my sister in law told me that, she found him outside shopping mall near road crossing. I do not know how i would have lived, if this could have gone any other way then it is in present.
There are so many such coincidents, that I have stopped counting them now. When i think about this power which is always with me, around me and try to view from the eyes of science and understand . I m realizing that ,all the laws of physics and sciences are not just laws of physics, they are laws that physicist and scientists have discovered after studying the behavior of things around us from cosmos to things on the earth.
But they have not created those laws, they found them after observations, but they have been there since time unknown. By accident? that’s where super logical minds of physicist stop seeing logic and say everything is an accident a big bang. Well, no mystic has ever been able to solve that for logical proof demanding scientists ever, unless you can transcend the boundaries of hard evidence to something which is around you, but is invisible.
Few clues for hard evidence seekers, has anybody seen love but its there, you know it, i know it ,that its there ,but can any body prove its existence with repeatable scientific steps. You know the answer. I m not writing this to question scientists, i myself is a student of it. I m also not trying to impose my opinion on anyone. Just want people to have open mind and experience few things from soul not just through five senses.
After years while studying cryptography , i came across quantum cryptography and how its impossible to break integrity of data encrypted using it and not get detected. As usual as follow up on an interesting topic like quantum physics,i again went through quantum theory and found scientists amazed by facts about particles, that they can be in two places at same time , it can be a wave and a particle as well. Again , is that just a coincidence? Such a beautiful thing, is that just result of an accident, a coincidence?
some day we will have the answers to things we cant see and measure, for now we can enjoy these mysteries, as that makes it even more beautiful